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Katherine's Journal ([personal profile] koshka_the_cat) wrote2025-12-02 07:36 pm
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Again!

I knit a row at work today! After doing lesson plans...

My car yelled at me for leaving the lane in the same intersection it's been yelling at me in. It's annoying me more than it should. I did satellite view on Google maps and if it's current, the crosswalk is messed up. I promise, I'm not leaving the lane! Stop yelling!
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sovay ([personal profile] sovay) wrote2025-12-02 05:18 pm
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Now where did you get that from, John le Carré?

Even for a conspiracy thriller, Defence of the Realm (1985) is an uncomfortable film. Its newsroom seems wrapped in a clingfilm of nicotine, its night scenes suffused with the surreal ultramarine that blurs dusk into dawn, its streets and offices as fox-fired with fluorescence as if faintly decaying throughout. An airbase glows as suddenly out of a darkness of fenland as science fiction. Precisely because no one can be seen in it, a window becomes a threat. It is not a sound or a secure world to inhabit and yet because it is ours, its characters walk on our own plain air of pretense, behaving as if its tips and headlines can be relied on until all at once the missed footing of a microcassette or a photocopy becomes an abyss and the most accustomed institutions nothing to hang on to after all. It came out of a decade whose mistrust of its government was proliferating through public discourse and art and felt neither safely transatlantic nor old-fashioned when I first learned of the film, twenty years ago when top-down lies about weapons of mass destruction were particularly au courant. Forty years after its release, its anxieties over the exercise of unaccountable power within a superficially democratic state haven't aged into a fantasy yet.

As a conspiracy thriller, it is not an especially twisty one, which works for rather than against its escalation from tabloid expediency to an open referendum on the British security state; it has one real feint in the juicy hit of its Profumo-style affair after which it can let itself concentrate on the unnerving, bleak, inevitable revelation of a world whose dangers spring not from the rattled skeletons of the Cold War but the actorly handshakes of the Special Relationship. We hear a bulletin on the bombing of the American embassy in Ankara before we see the titles that set the isolated scene of a car speeding down a night-misted road somewhere in the sedge flats of "Eastern England." Further overlays of current events will come to sound more like the Lincolnshire Poacher than Channel 4, a wallpaper of committee hearings and police reports pinging their transmissions among the paranoid legwork of blow-ups and coil taps. "Clapping eyes on it is one thing. Getting a copy out is another. " The flame of truth in this film is more like one of those old incandescent bulbs that take a second or two to sputter on, dust-burnt and bug-flecked. For a while it seems not just carried but incarnated by Vernon Bayliss, one of the rumpled nonpareils of 1980's Denholm Elliott—nothing but the rigs of the Thatcherite time explains what his old leftie is doing as the veteran hack of a right-wing rag like the Daily Dispatch, but it's a riveting showcase for his voice that crackles with cynicism while the rest of his face looks helplessly hurt, his disorganized air of not even having gotten to the bed he just fell out of, a couple of heel-taps from a permanently half-cut Cassandra of the Street of Shame. "Vodka and Coca-Cola! Détente in a glass." His inability to drink his ethics under the table and accept the gift-wrapped stitch-up of the Markham affair may be a professional embarrassment, but it gives him a harassed dignity that persists through his cagily tape-recorded conversations, his blatantly burgled flat, his obsessive spiraling after something worse than a scoop, the facts. "Oh, well," he snarls with such exasperated contempt that the cliché sounds like another shortwave code, "don't let the truth get in the way of a good story." It makes his successor in the threads of the conspiracy even more counterintuitive and compelling, since just the CV of his byline establishes Nick Mullen as the kind of ingeniously shameless journo who never has yet. Gabriel Byrne looks too wolfishly handsome for an ice-cream face, but he has no trouble passing himself off as a plainclothes copper in order to upstage the competition with an extra-spicy soundbite gleaned from an all-night stakeout and a literal foot in the door. His neutrally converted flat looks barely moved into, its mismatched and minimal furnishings dominated by the analog workstation of his deep-drawered desk with its card file and telephone and cork board and typewriter, a capitalist-realist joke of a work-life balance. Whatever he actually believes about the exposé he's penned with everything in it from call girls to CND, it comes an obvious second to drinks with the deputy editor and being let off puff pieces about the bingo—fast-forwarded four decades of slang, Nick might say in line with his corporatized, privatized generation that caring is cringe. "Give me a break. You know how it is. It's a bloody good story!" And yet because he's not too successfully disaffected to show concern when a mordantly ratted Vernon raises a belligerent glass to his shadow from Special Branch, in little more than the time it takes to jimmy open a filing cabinet he will find himself not merely retracing his older colleague's steps but telescoping through them, the real story coming in like a scream of turbines and terrifyingly so much less clandestine than it should have had the decency to be. Le Carré is invoked with debunking condescension, but it is just that chill of his which pervades this film whose obscured, oppressive antagonist is not a foreign power or a rogue agent or even a sinister corporation but the establishment itself, blandly willing to commit any number of atrocities to contain a scandal that goes considerably further than the death of a young offender or the indiscretions of a former chairman of the Defence Select Committee. The old scares still work when Vernon's integrity can be questioned with the reminder of his Communist youth, but the cold isn't coming from the other side of the Iron Curtain: if you can't see your breath in Whitehall, you must not be looking. Hence the warmest character on this scene is its most disposable and its antihero in ever greater danger as he makes not only the tradecraft connections of collated data, but the human ones of outrage, trust, and shame, learning to shiver as he goes, but fast enough? His faith in his own disillusion is touchingly unequal to the pitiless weirdness of the tribunal of nameless civil servants who cross-question him like judges of the underworld in triplicate before turning him loose into a night so vaporous and deserted, its traffic lights blinking robotically in the mercury sheen, it seems that in the ultimate solipsism of conspiracy Nick has become the one real person in all of London. After all, a state need not kill if it can atomize, terminating communication either way. "The only person who knew the answer to that question was Vernon."

Originating as a screenplay by Martin Stellman who already had the anti-establishment cult non-musical Quadrophenia (1979) under his belt and directed by prior documentarian David Drury, Defence of the Realm had grounds for its nervous clamminess even before the photography of Roger Deakins, who gave it a color scheme which tends even in natural light toward the blanched or crepuscular and a camera which monitors its subjects from such surreptitious telephoto angles—when it isn't jostling against them like an umbrella in a crowd—that no closed-circuit, reel-to-reel confirmation is required for it to feel unsafe for them to be captured on film at all. "Age of Technology, eh?" Nick remarks affectionately, rescuing Vernon from the poser of the portable tape recorder. "You haven't even caught up with the Industrial Revolution." Suitable to its techno-thriller aspects, the film is as mixed in its media as parapsychological sci-fi, but whatever pre-digital nostalgia the viewer may feel toward an Olympus Pearlcorder S920 or a Xerox machine should tap out at nuclear-armed F-111s. "R.A.F. Milden Heath, Home of the 14th Tac. Fighter Wing U.S. Air Force" hardly needs the geographical triangulation of Brandon and Thetford to translate it into RAF Lakenheath where two separate near-accidents involving American nukes on British soil really had, in 1956 and 1961, occurred. Only the first had been officially acknowledged at the time of the film's production and release. The Greenham Common Women's Peace Camp was still in full protest, the American nuclear presence a plutonium-hot, red-button issue; it was no stretch to imagine another incident kicked under the irradiated carpet at all costs. The film's more disturbing skepticism is reserved for the trustiness of its hot metal news. Its portrait of the fourth estate is not wholly unaffectionate, especially in cultural details such as the racket of a banging-out ceremony in the composing room, the collage of pin-ups in the stacks of the manila-filed morgue, or even the pained groan with which Bill Paterson's Jack Macleod observes the disposal of a cup of cold coffee: "Aw, Christ, what did that geranium ever do to you?" The Conservative sympathies of the paper, however, are flagged on introduction as its senior staff slam-dunk the character assassination of a prominent opposition MP and it is eventually no surprise to find its owner in more than tacit collusion with the faceless forces of the security services, considering his side hustle in defence contracting. "The man's into the government for millions . . . They build American bases. Can't jeopardize that, old son." It is not just the individual journalists in Defence of the Realm, but the entire concept of a free press that seems fragile, contingent, compromised. For all its triumphal, classical headline montage, the film goes out on a note of thrumming ambiguity, whether the conspiracy will perpetuate itself through its own media channels, whether everything we have seen lost will be worth the sacrifice or merely the valiant humanity of trying. These days I would be much more hostile to the magical thinking of a secret state except for all the authoritarianism. Move over, Vernon, even if both halves of your favorite beverage would try to kill me. "It's a free country. I think."

Denholm Elliott won his third consecutive BAFTA for Defence of the Realm and deserved to, stealing a film so three-dimensionally that his exit leaves the audience less twist-shocked than bereft: what a waste that he and Judi Dench never played siblings or cousins, their cat's faces and wide-set jasper eyes. Ian Bannen appears even more sparingly as Dennis Markham, but he only needs to be remembered as Jim Prideaux to trail that cold world in with him. As his PA, Greta Scacchi's Nina Beckman is self-possessed, unimpressed, and it feels like a mark of the film's maturity that she does not fall into bed with Nick when he's of much more use to her as a partner in counter-conspiracy, meeting on the red-railed Hungerford Bridge where we cannot tell if the reverse-shot pair on the concrete arches of Waterloo Bridge should be taken as tourists, commuters, more of the surveillance apparatus that feels so very little need to disguise itself. It is not faint praise that Gabriel Byrne thinks convincingly onscreen, especially when Nick gives an initial impression of cleverness rather than depth. I can respect the way he lives in the one tweed jacket down to falling asleep in his car in it. After two decades of keeping an eye out, I pounced on this film on Tubi despite its rather disappointingly scrunchy transfer and enjoyed it in much better shape on YouTube. Whatever else has dated of its technologies and mores, I have to say that a distrust of American nuclear capacities sounds healthy to me. This détente brought to you by my industrial backers at Patreon.
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Lia de Thornegge ([personal profile] liadethornegge) wrote2025-12-02 09:39 pm

Modern sewing and archery

I pulled out my lovely sewing machine this weekend. On Sunday I made one nightshirt out of a flannel offcut.

Today I made another version of the same nightshirt, slightly longer sleeves and fancier hem treatments. I made self bias tape and did an edge binding like on a t-shirt knit.

I might continue with the modern sewing to start, at long last, on my winter coat. We'll see.

Archery last night was fun - we got to try a recurve bow and a second go at longbows as well. The rapid switching between equipment messed me up quite a bit, but my grouping was still acceptable, mostly.

The one arrow which felt effortless and straight forward was also the one arrow that went straight in the centre circle. We have only two more Mondays left on this course. After this we get to come practice on Tuesday and Thursdays instead.

I think the two of us will both want to continue practicing with longbows after the course. The club has several loaner longbows as well as the barebows we are learning on.
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radiantfracture ([personal profile] radiantfracture) wrote2025-12-02 09:41 am
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Bookmark game

Hey, I'm making weird little games again. For the TTRPG Bookmark Game Jam on itch.io, I submitted a little bibliomantic solo game here.

There are some fun ideas in the jam already. If, say, you're in need of a bookmark that gamifies attention drift and daydreaming, I recommend checking the games out.

If you feel inspired, I invite you, too, to make a gamified bookmark and tell me about it. They don't have to be games -- the bookmark could be an asset, as folks call them, like encounter tables or pseudodice.

I'm fooling around with a couple of other ideas, but I'm delighted to have finished something.

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m_of_disguise ([personal profile] m_of_disguise) wrote2025-12-02 09:09 am

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Quiet enough night at home. Katie was in a good mood, and was very invested in trying to balance a ball on my head, so she spent most of the evening standing next to me on the couch, saying "ball!", putting it on my head, and then saying "hat!" Silly girl.

She went to bed easily, and I went out and picked us up some cheap McDonald's for dinner. I had really been looking forward to their mango smoothie that they have on the menu right now, but the machine was broken. Womp womp. They gave me an extra 10-piece nugget and an ice cream in recompense, and all was well. 

M told me he had run into a neighbor while he and Katie were on a walk, one I've spoken to before, and she is moving out because they are fighting rats. EEEK. Her unit is a few buildings away from ours, so we haven't seen any vermin, thankfully. She also told us that everyone on that side of the complex has moved out, and basically every unit facing the back lot is empty. Yikes.

Speaking of which, one of our last sets of neighbors in our particular building has moved out. We weren't sure they had since there is still a TON of stuff around their unit, but the other night when M came home, their front door was wide open and everything was dark, so he went up to do a welfare check and found the place abandoned. He said the heat had been cranked up to 95 (!!) and there was detritus all over the apartment, so we're thinking that maybe a vagrant got in there and rifled around. Yeesh.

So now it's just us and the older Asian couple and their son that live upstairs, and the rest of the building is empty. When we move out next year, they'll be the last. 
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Katherine's Journal ([personal profile] koshka_the_cat) wrote2025-12-01 09:00 pm
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Whew

I mathed right and the first row of lacy things lined up. And I've knit three days in a row!
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m_of_disguise ([personal profile] m_of_disguise) wrote2025-12-01 12:50 pm

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The long holiday weekend was very, very good. Thursday I cleaned the house, getting the last pile of dishes done, the cat closet scrubbed, and the living room picked up and vacuumed. M started on the food very late, so I helped with the chopping and shredding and other prep stuff since I could sit down while doing all that. I made an absolutely enormous new-to-us baked mac n' cheese recipe, which was very good, but OMG, so huge. We still have a quarter of the pan left after eating on it for four days. We subbed pepper jack for the American cheese, because neither of us like American cheese. Besides that we cooked up two tri tip roasts in different flavors, and made some mashed potatoes. I had chopped some sweet potatoes to roast them, but we had made a grave error in that almost every side dish we chose needed to be made in the oven, and with such a small oven, we had no ability to cook multiple things at once. By the time the roasts and the noodles were done, it was 10:30 at night, so the sweet potatoes went into a bag to be used another day.

Friday was a chill day. Everyone slept in, even Kate, and when I got up, I roasted up the sweet potatoes from the night before so we could munch on them through the weekend. Kate really wanted to go out for a walk, and M suggested we make it a family outing since we needed to go buy her a coat first. We loaded into the car and headed to the store, and completely forgot that it was Black Friday, so we drove straight into a madhouse. Kate and I stayed in the car while M ran inside and picked up a couple of jackets for her, then we drove out to Weatherford and headed to M's favorite park there, which has a playground and walking trails. Kate was introduced to the slides, which were THE BEST. She could have gone down that slide all night long, but a storm rolled up on us, and suddenly we were getting hailed on! Kate and I took refuge in the covered picnic area while M pulled the car up, and then we headed home.

Saturday and Sunday were both very chill days. No cleaning, no cooking, just eating leftovers and lounging at home. We had an excellent cold front move through on Saturday evening, and by Sunday it was down into the 30s! It was wonderful, I'm so glad it actually feels like the season should. M went out shooting on Sunday to cap off the weekend, and we put Kate down in her own bed so we could lounge together in ours at the end of the night.

All in all, it was an excellent weekend. M was noticeably more relaxed and happier without work stress to bum him out, so I'm glad he got a good break from it all. He had a good meeting with his boss this morning, too, which reassured him that he's doing well and has been a good addition to the team, and he seems less worried about work overall. 

T minus 9 days until baby. This is my last full week at work, so I'm trying to get things finished up and get my personal items (mainly patterns I have printed off at work and stuck in various drawers *cough*) gathered up to take home. Our plan was for me to take my full leave and then us reassess our needs once it was over, but M is talking more and more like coming home permanently is a guarantee now, so I don't want to leave anything behind just in case. 

Very excited to not be pregnant anymore soon!
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Katherine's Journal ([personal profile] koshka_the_cat) wrote2025-11-30 09:11 pm
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Sleeves

The sleeves are on, and I think I figured out how many stitches I need before starting the pattern. Counting is hard.
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yhlee ([personal profile] yhlee) wrote2025-11-30 08:53 pm
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emotional support fiber

Continuing from the earlier experiment, emotional support weaving with handspun weft:

weaving WIP

Tension management is a mess with this (experimental, non-destructive) setup but I figured I'd at least weave this warp, write this off as a learning experience (I did learn a lot) + disaster-mode "weaving" art therapy, and move on. :)

I also learned that I strongly dislike making very "loose," airy weaves structurally, so that's good to know about myself. I sometimes like them in fabrics made by machines/other people but I don't enjoy weaving them, so I'll avoid in the future!
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yhlee ([personal profile] yhlee) wrote2025-11-29 11:34 pm

much emotional support fiber

Saori WX60 + Clover Sakiori 60cm "feather" (reed/heddle thingy???) Frankenloom warping. This does work. It doesn't work all that well, but it works. Fortunately, the weaving is the fast part and this is a shorter warp, so I'll just finish this for exploration's sake and then return to "normal" warping. :)





Finished the 2-ply merino yarn!

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Katherine's Journal ([personal profile] koshka_the_cat) wrote2025-11-29 05:59 pm
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More!

I knit 6 rows last night. I'm almost at 9 inches, which is where you cast on the sleeves.

You're supposed to do it after row 13, but I'll probably do it after row 5. Those are the rows that start the stockinette between the lacy pattern. After that, I need to figure out how many leading stitches I need to start the pattern to make it line up. The pattern tells you, but I'm making a different size and gauge. And probably row number. It's not a big thing, although since it involves math, my brain is uncooperative. I'll wait until the stitches are cast on, then it should be straightforward. I'll put stitch markers and count backwards. Maybe I'll get there tonight...
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sovay ([personal profile] sovay) wrote2025-11-29 02:17 pm

And me? Well, I'm just the narrator

If you knew the algorithm and fed it back say ten thousand times, each time there'd be a dot somewhere on the screen. You'd never know where to expect the next dot. But gradually you'd start to see this shape, because every dot will be inside the shape of this leaf. It wouldn't be a leaf, it would be a mathematical object. But yes. The unpredictable and the predetermined unfold together to make everything the way it is. It's how nature creates itself, on every scale, the snowflake and the snowstorm. It makes me so happy. To be at the beginning again, knowing almost nothing. People were talking about the end of physics. Relativity and quantum looked as if they were going to clean out the whole problem between them. A theory of everything. But they only explained the very big and the very small. The universe, the elementary particles. The ordinary-sized stuff which is our lives, the things people write poetry about – clouds – daffodils – waterfalls – and what happens in a cup of coffee when the cream goes in – these things are full of mystery, as mysterious to us as the heavens were to the Greeks. We're better at predicting events at the edge of the galaxy or inside the nucleus of an atom than whether it'll rain on auntie's garden party three Sundays from now. Because the problem turns out to be different. We can't even predict the next drip from a dripping tap when it gets irregular. Each drip sets up the conditions for the next, the smallest variation blows prediction apart, and the weather is unpredictable the same way, will always be unpredictable. When you push the numbers through the computer you can see it on the screen. The future is disorder. A door like this has cracked open five or six times since we got up on our hind legs. It's the best possible time to be alive, when almost everything you thought you knew is wrong.

Tom Stoppard, Arcadia (1993)
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Katherine's Journal ([personal profile] koshka_the_cat) wrote2025-11-28 08:40 pm
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Knitting...

I knit 5 rows yesterday. I just picked up my knitting tonight...
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hrj ([personal profile] hrj) wrote2025-11-28 11:54 am
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The Analytic Brain is Having Fun

So one of my current projects-in-rotation is doing an extremely geeky analysis of the history and dynamics of the Best Related* Hugo category.

The initial stage was to create a spreadsheet of all the known nominees (finalists, long-list, and any additional available data), track down additional data related to them, and categorize the nature and content of the works from various angles.

The second stage was to describe and document the procedural activities behind the creation and modification of the category, as well as to do the same for other Hugo categories that interacted with its scope in some way.**

The third stage was to put together simple descriptive statistics for nomination patterns, comparing the three "eras" of the category scope and (to the extent possible) comparing chronological changes within each era that give evidence for the evolution of nominator attitudes. (Graphs! We have graphs!)

Now I've moved on to a more narrative analysis of each of the various category axes (e.g., media format, content type, etc.) examining what they tell us about how the nominating community thinks about appropriate scope and noteworthiness. As I've hoped would happen, some interesting thoughts and observations are showing up as I work through the discussions, and I'm making notes towards an eventual Conclusions section.

To some extent, I have three sets of questions that I'd like to answer:

1) On a descriptive basis, what have people nominated for Best Related? How have changes in the official definition and name of the category affected what people nominate, and where are the places where nominators have pushed the edges of the official scope and, in so doing, affected future decisions about changing the official scope?

2) Can we determine what makes nominators consider a work worthy of nomination for Best Related? How do factors including format, subject, and creator visibility interact in the nomination dynamics? To what extent are larger socio-political currents reflected in what is nominated?

3) On an anecdotal basis, there are opinions that the Best Related category has "jumped the shark" in terms of works being nominated that are frivolous, trivial, out-of-scope, etc. Some ascribe this to the open-ended definition of the scope under the Best Related Work label. Are there quantitative or qualitative differences in what is being nominated currently that would support an opinion that the category is becoming less relevant in terms of recognizing "worthy" work? And if so (not saying I hold this opinion), does the data point to approaches that might discourage "outliers" from an agreed-on scope without the need for procedural gymnastics or ruthlessly excluding worthy works purely on the basis of format? (Works that would have no other route to recognition under the current Hugo Awards program.)

Please note that my purpose in doing this analysis is scientific curiosity (and a desire to keep my analytic brain in practice). I tend to be solidly on the "let the nominators decide" team outside of the scope definitions enshrined in the WSFS constitution (which Hugo administrators have often subsumed to the "let the nominators decide" position). But at the same time, I'm interested in answering the question of "how has the body of nominations/finalists/winners changed as the scope of the category has broadened?"

It will be several more months (at least) before I'll have a draft ready for anyone else to look at. At which point I'll be looking for some beta readers, not only for intelligibility and accuracy but for any points of context that I may be unaware of. I anticipate publishing the resulting work in my blog, though I may be looking for some other venue to mirror it for a wider audience.

*"Best Related" is my umbrella term for the three stages of the category: Best Non-Fiction Book, Best Related Book, and Best Related Work. Part of my analysis is to examine how changes in the category name and scope affected what got nominated.

**For example, how the creation of categories for Best Fancast, Best Game, etc. interacted with the nomination of those types of works under Best Related.
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Lia de Thornegge ([personal profile] liadethornegge) wrote2025-11-28 07:21 pm
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A dead-end, and cape progress

Forgot about this blog again. But I have been ok about actually updating my wordpress monthly Craft Recaps.

It seems more and more people are leaving the virus that is FB, and the question is where to find community again. This blog suffers, because I do not believe this is where we will re-gather. Unfortunately.


Anyway, I've gotten some more progress on my laurel cape. I've finished the badges around the hems, and I've outlined the entire cape with a laurel wreath trim. I want to add more stuff to my cape, but I haven't actually finished my design, so I'm testing it out on the project live.

After trying a cold cord three ways I realized I have almost enough of the laurel trim to double up the outline around the whole cape. I am hoping Helwig might have another roll of that, or I will have to go back to the drawing board again.

I started to get some hope of finishing it enough to wear it at 12th Night Coronation, but, I think that's not quite realistic.

The applique and all the cord I am couching means I also want to add another layer of fabric on the inside before lining it with silk. The ends of the cordage I am couching is anchored on the backside, and I'm worried the ends might poke or snag on the silk if I do nothing. I am hoping that a single layer of cotton will be enough to stop that happening. I want to keep this cape as light as possible, though.