Nothing anyone can really say on this, I think...
*hugs*

But you're still loved, pissyness and all. ~.^ Hope you can start focusing... That seems to be the biggest thing for you. So hard to start when there are so many directions to go. I don't have it to the degree you do, but I understand a bit of it.

I want to excersize more, go to belly dance on a regular basis, learn how to sew more, actually start into storytelling, read more pratchett... The list continues and never, ever ends. *sighs*
Until later. *hugs*