ATW

ATW==After The Wedding. They're officially recognized as married. The families are satisfied. The friends worked butts off. The party was grand. 125 people, including a full and relatively happy kids room, a bar run by volunteers, more dance music than we could use, and strange things of all kinds.

I'm still processing it, but it was a grand party. Onward!

So, some of the realizations:

1. I'm in an elevated state of generalized worrying. WTF? I've been here for years. I used to be much more relaxed. (At least, I think I must of been. I stressed, but not reacted so harriedly.)

2. ...the generalized worrying (or coyote blue) comes from/to/with a negative outlook on things. Time to change that.

3. The presence of a wedding is a big enough emotional/spiritual/psychological weight on the attendees that things are re-examined and changed.

4. (Thanks, Tugrik) I really enjoy geeking about things, and have been hiding it to fit in a sales organization. It's honestly a passion.

5. ZZTop was right--every girl's crazy 'bout a sharp dressed man. Wedding and waltzing in the 1870's tailcoat, vest, cravat; reception switched to swing time (late 30's, actually) and the zoot suit. Women were actually trying to drag me away from other women! ! No, not too badly, but really!

and....6. If you're fixated on something, it's more sense to go towards it than run away. Physics in action; the leash of mental gravity is very hard to break.


Back on the diet. Back on the bike. Back to work!

BORING POST: Diet Details

Hey, don't bother reading this. I'm going to use livejournal to work the diet thang.

FOOD EATEN TODAY:
Breakfast: Orange. 8 AM
Lunch: 5 oz (?) Halibut, 1 cup vegetable medley (mushrooms, asparagus, green beans) (at Oracle 500 Cafeteria (300?) (12:30)
Snack: 1 cup potato chips (bad) 4 PM
Dinner: 5 oz chicken in red wine/garlic sauce 7 PM
Snack: Coffee and Banana 8:30 PM
Drink now, it's a barqs and is 160 sugar cals.
Century done at 5:30 (focus on flow, not telegraphing.)
Fought 9:20 to 10:20; trained Vytas; worked with Mari and Raf and Geoffrey Scott; learned from Kelly, talked with Castings, Merlin, SCB, SCB2. Good movement, not enough penetration. New shield nice.

Tomorrow: White Protien day; aim for ketosis. Bkfast eggs, lunch? sashimi; dinner chicken.
Work goal: Extreme proposal, O, V. Expenses! Scripts.
Workout: Century and walk in morning, gym (weights) early evening, dance? later.

Thursday: Travel to Colusa in the PM, or not?

More tomorrow.