Today is a Mental Umbrella Day

[learnteach]

It's official. I've recieved more cold water shocks today than I have in over a year. Karmic shocks, social shocks, warm shocks--just jars that make me go "What?". It's not a red letter day, it's a Mental Umbrella day.

I'll remember this.

Contemplating a job, discussing it with a very intelligent and wise man, and him sweeping out my rationalization by pointing out that if it's the money, I can go make big bucks in Iraq as a data geek.

Setting up and moving a bunch of meetings with friends, and having all but one fall through.

Going to dance, and having both an inability to get a partner, and a reminder of the past.

So, the question:

Why am I only running at 15%? What is it that is making me so lazy, when I know I can do so much more?

Comments

[collie13.livejournal.com]

Are you okay, John? I remember how shocked you were once when Ann D. & I were talking to you about stuff we thought was self-evident about you. I always felt a little guilty for not remembering it's always harder to see oneself clearly.

*grin* I'll dance with you (once I'm over the stomach flu of the last few days). As the saying goes, you're a peachy dancer, and all the girls love you! ;)

I've said it before, but I guess it bears repeating: let me know if there's anything I can do to help, okay?