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It's official. I've recieved more cold water shocks today than I have in over a year. Karmic shocks, social shocks, warm shocks--just jars that make me go "What?". It's not a red letter day, it's a Mental Umbrella day.

I'll remember this.

Contemplating a job, discussing it with a very intelligent and wise man, and him sweeping out my rationalization by pointing out that if it's the money, I can go make big bucks in Iraq as a data geek.

Setting up and moving a bunch of meetings with friends, and having all but one fall through.

Going to dance, and having both an inability to get a partner, and a reminder of the past.

So, the question:

Why am I only running at 15%? What is it that is making me so lazy, when I know I can do so much more?