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learnteach) wrote2016-04-28 11:36 am
learnteach) wrote2016-04-28 11:36 am
I'm not out of spoons...I'm out of SLACK.
Lemme check. Crippling medical condition? Nope. Endemic prejudice against me? Nope. (Some systemic ageism, but meh, big deal.) Held hostage to anything I MUST have, like medicine, or clean water? Not completely yet.
Why so angsty, ChickenMan?
I'm out of slack. I agree to help, and then discover the people I'm helping are limitless fonts of need. It's not always their fault (*this is subject to revision) but it's EVERYWHERE. Work asking for extra unpaid hours. Started a social media campaign for the theater, and now I'm being asked, after I've said 3 times, that I don't have time because I'm working, to explain what social media is, how we can use it, what the risks a...waitafuckingsecond, I proposed this explanation twice, you didn't want to hear it then, but now that the cast's involved you need to understand it?
GOOGLE IS YOUR FRIEND.
Work? Hot Potato land? I understand there's pain and money out there. I have learned from my counsellings. I'm not permitted to work extra hours; anything I touch I own (because I get closure) and management has very little understanding of the product beyond a shiny Marketing slide.
NOT PAID TO WORRY ABOUT THAT. Yep, I escalate to management. Yep, I notice your "this is easy, why do you make me do it" responses. Yep, I don't set policy or make promises to customers--that's your job, Sr. Director. And soon, I'll be going ahead and waking you up at 3 AM because you make commitments to customers you don't keep. NOT PAID to make that decision. NOT MY PROBLEM! I do hate losing my self respect on the job, but I"m not paid to self-actualize.
Clockwork Alchemy? Focus my goals. If you don't want to work with them, I'll remove you. IF you say "Well, I wouldn't want to say anything negative", I'll ignore your next three sentences to my benefit. Aaaaaand...your feelings about so-and-so? My goals are simple and easy and will be achieved, and I'll listen sympathetically and still not change worldview. Will there be Drama? YOu bet your Bippy! WIll I care? Nope.
Diet fail? That's on me. GOt the tools, just need to prioritize things. But the balm for my soul that is socializing and the need to avoid fatty environments are at such fucking severe odds that I can't even (using modern parlance). Bad news: Back to 370, nothing fits, etc. Good news: I have the too...well, the knowledge, need to redevelop the tools.
DRAMA in my friends? Ok, sorry, can't help you with your marraige/Kid problems/divorce all that meaningfully--out of slack. Especially when your trust and dreams and desire end up getting you pulped by an asshole again, or when your fight with your ex means I'm no longer your friend. Sucks to be me? Not really. BUt I'm about to be a lot less sympathetic.
Teeth. FUck. CUrrent estimate: $18,000 more. FUCK THIS COUNTRY. THe question is: Thailand, or Costa Rica, or Mexico?
SCA? Gonna have to say NO to any commitments, because it's stressful to say I'll help, then see the massive FAIL coming. We've grown into doing BIG things, and there's always whiners, but I'm going to value my talents more and not get roped into things that to my eye are bound to fail because someone else can't organize.
SO, Yeah, Rant. SLack. I wish I could say I'll retreat and get this together. I think one of the key problems is that work keeps me up until one AM minumum and chickens wake me up by 7 AM at the latest, so I'm not getting enough sleep by far. Also, the toxic political thing is everywhere. My comment: Any republican with a statement of "boots on the ground" will fuck the economy so hard we'll be totally a third world country. Any time there's talk about Child Predation, there's a really horrible power grab RIGHT behind it (North Carolina's HB2!) and we'll see it in 20 other states soon, it's being pushed for. And whining but not doing? HELLO FB!
THere's a rant. HOpe you feel better. Oh, and I try to keep this off facebook because A) don't want to contribute to the toxic and B) don't want to be republiMANsplained ALL the time and C) Don't want to hurt the hurting more. YOu guys are purported adults, you can figure it out.
Why so angsty, ChickenMan?
I'm out of slack. I agree to help, and then discover the people I'm helping are limitless fonts of need. It's not always their fault (*this is subject to revision) but it's EVERYWHERE. Work asking for extra unpaid hours. Started a social media campaign for the theater, and now I'm being asked, after I've said 3 times, that I don't have time because I'm working, to explain what social media is, how we can use it, what the risks a...waitafuckingsecond, I proposed this explanation twice, you didn't want to hear it then, but now that the cast's involved you need to understand it?
GOOGLE IS YOUR FRIEND.
Work? Hot Potato land? I understand there's pain and money out there. I have learned from my counsellings. I'm not permitted to work extra hours; anything I touch I own (because I get closure) and management has very little understanding of the product beyond a shiny Marketing slide.
NOT PAID TO WORRY ABOUT THAT. Yep, I escalate to management. Yep, I notice your "this is easy, why do you make me do it" responses. Yep, I don't set policy or make promises to customers--that's your job, Sr. Director. And soon, I'll be going ahead and waking you up at 3 AM because you make commitments to customers you don't keep. NOT PAID to make that decision. NOT MY PROBLEM! I do hate losing my self respect on the job, but I"m not paid to self-actualize.
Clockwork Alchemy? Focus my goals. If you don't want to work with them, I'll remove you. IF you say "Well, I wouldn't want to say anything negative", I'll ignore your next three sentences to my benefit. Aaaaaand...your feelings about so-and-so? My goals are simple and easy and will be achieved, and I'll listen sympathetically and still not change worldview. Will there be Drama? YOu bet your Bippy! WIll I care? Nope.
Diet fail? That's on me. GOt the tools, just need to prioritize things. But the balm for my soul that is socializing and the need to avoid fatty environments are at such fucking severe odds that I can't even (using modern parlance). Bad news: Back to 370, nothing fits, etc. Good news: I have the too...well, the knowledge, need to redevelop the tools.
DRAMA in my friends? Ok, sorry, can't help you with your marraige/Kid problems/divorce all that meaningfully--out of slack. Especially when your trust and dreams and desire end up getting you pulped by an asshole again, or when your fight with your ex means I'm no longer your friend. Sucks to be me? Not really. BUt I'm about to be a lot less sympathetic.
Teeth. FUck. CUrrent estimate: $18,000 more. FUCK THIS COUNTRY. THe question is: Thailand, or Costa Rica, or Mexico?
SCA? Gonna have to say NO to any commitments, because it's stressful to say I'll help, then see the massive FAIL coming. We've grown into doing BIG things, and there's always whiners, but I'm going to value my talents more and not get roped into things that to my eye are bound to fail because someone else can't organize.
SO, Yeah, Rant. SLack. I wish I could say I'll retreat and get this together. I think one of the key problems is that work keeps me up until one AM minumum and chickens wake me up by 7 AM at the latest, so I'm not getting enough sleep by far. Also, the toxic political thing is everywhere. My comment: Any republican with a statement of "boots on the ground" will fuck the economy so hard we'll be totally a third world country. Any time there's talk about Child Predation, there's a really horrible power grab RIGHT behind it (North Carolina's HB2!) and we'll see it in 20 other states soon, it's being pushed for. And whining but not doing? HELLO FB!
THere's a rant. HOpe you feel better. Oh, and I try to keep this off facebook because A) don't want to contribute to the toxic and B) don't want to be republiMANsplained ALL the time and C) Don't want to hurt the hurting more. YOu guys are purported adults, you can figure it out.
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