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learnteachThe sky is blue and clear, and the sun chased away the dew an hour ago--in another hour, it will hurt to feel it on the back of my neck. I'm beginning this journal with the hope and intent that my recent confusions/disarray can be cleared up, and also to log how my weight loss/health plans are going. And other reasons, of course.
Today is the first day of another diet; the goal, this time, to drop from 350 to 230 lbs in a healthy manner and then maintain that weight. Everyone who meets me tells me I carry 350 well, but it's still too much to carry. Although the examination and the blood test show that I'm very healthy (which is to say they didn't find any problems) I want the energy I had before back; I want the fear of blowing out a joint because I moved wrong gone, and I want to be able to buy clothes normally (ok, abnormally, but International Male has such fun clothes). And there's a tangled mental situation too, involving self image/ self confidence/ group dynamics.
What else? One big point of a journal (hey, where does that word come from? Is it related to journey?)(...from searching: "By definition a journal is a "periodical publication" (OED sb. 6) ..." from http://www.chass.utoronto.ca/chass/epub4.html but that's not the root, only the definition.) is to mark things as one goes along; blazes or memory cairns in the journey of life.
So, to add the rocks to this mornings pile: work is out of control with mis-communication. Weight is ?? but was 251 on Friday. Weekend was ketosis inducing meat diet; now on protein heavy limited calorie diet. So, on to work...
Today is the first day of another diet; the goal, this time, to drop from 350 to 230 lbs in a healthy manner and then maintain that weight. Everyone who meets me tells me I carry 350 well, but it's still too much to carry. Although the examination and the blood test show that I'm very healthy (which is to say they didn't find any problems) I want the energy I had before back; I want the fear of blowing out a joint because I moved wrong gone, and I want to be able to buy clothes normally (ok, abnormally, but International Male has such fun clothes). And there's a tangled mental situation too, involving self image/ self confidence/ group dynamics.
What else? One big point of a journal (hey, where does that word come from? Is it related to journey?)(...from searching: "By definition a journal is a "periodical publication" (OED sb. 6) ..." from http://www.chass.utoronto.ca/chass/epub4.html but that's not the root, only the definition.) is to mark things as one goes along; blazes or memory cairns in the journey of life.
So, to add the rocks to this mornings pile: work is out of control with mis-communication. Weight is ?? but was 251 on Friday. Weekend was ketosis inducing meat diet; now on protein heavy limited calorie diet. So, on to work...
